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| hi. sorry took lonq to update. ive been struggling to feel better and make things turn out to be right. im doing homework right now and im bout to be off to watch the VIBE award 2niqht. so imma update after the show =) ok? drop some. <33
R.I.P - EDDiE GUERERGO( 11/13/05) WWE WRESTLER b.k.a BACK STABBER
L0VE,
`__kizzy | | |
| jea, life isnt any better !!! thank you all who gave me props based on my entry  . i need subs too, can i have it like daht? l0lz. but its nice to see 23 ppl dropin sum l0ve on da previous entry yayz motha fuckas.
im so confused on so many things. problem 1. this guy , way older than me (4 yrs) l0l ,looks older than his age. things screwed up and there aint no way & in my mind that things culd be fixed. its so wierd talkin to him after the big poop daht happened. ii like him and all but i jus dont kno wat it is about him. some people tell me to "  follow your heart " well sorry bitches, not on this case. it seems me to like he always around, up and down mingling. never got time to really talk to him straight up. and since im on lock , daht even fuck shxt up more daht i cant holla at him out my crib. but i cant because all thats running through is that my age & his age. well i dont care bout da age category as long as it aint 21. and he really dont seem interested in me in a way , its like he's seeing me as a friend, im cool and not cool with it sometimes. and sometimes wen i wanna ask him how he feels bout me, it just doesnt feel like my place to ask him that. so i really dont know what to do. i need some help on that poop.
2. why am im feeling so guilty and worthless lately? i feel so depressed for sum damn reason i cant explain. ive been makin alot of FUCKED UP decisions. my mom is still on my case , thinkin daht im hidin suttin from her , its like my family aint trusting me to fucking more or have no confidence in me. dey just dont understand shit ive been goin through ,and u dont know how sick and tired i am of typing the same bullshit drama rama on xanga over & over !!! it feels like nothing right now cant be fixed.this is breakin on a heartache & headache.... i feel like to die , that there is nothin left for me to do and daht i have nothin to lose. i`ll b much happier in a coffin layin rest asleep and never to wake up. no bitch ; i aint goin commit suicide...
leave me sum <33 -- no randoms
HEARTACHE
__`kizzy
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| ++ BIG CREDIT OUT TO ANNA ; for the dissolving looking exit thinqiie, da chick who bit off jayka's info on her site. ++
all fuckin graphics was made by me [ kizzy ] the one & fuckin onlii. hope u like, so comment and drop crap . no randoms !!! i dun want no one else up on my payge and not leavin commentz or leavin me shxt like "hot payge ! randoms , hit me back up" no shxt like that. read my entries and get it over with, if u tink u have sumthin to say bout my daily entry, den drop it. negative thinqs keep to yourself.
ii think that imma start a protected entry, because madd fuckin drama goin` on and i have so much things on my mind that i need to let all out. shxts been happening lately , dat it has dis huge effect on me, like my confidence is going down and all ovauh the place and iim swiitchin into a different person, im feeling worthless & empty & boring ( like daht nigga rich said ). -- by the way niqqa, i like u, but the fact daht chu called me borin` qot to me, u`ll see why....
-- lifes a bitch . you just  need to know how to live it. exactly my point . im walkin around lately feeling guilty inside and it killiiin the shit outta me. normally i wuld feel guilty and jus shake it off, but dammmnn its comin down hard w/ my momz thinkin shit like im a hoe and she dont trust me anymore on some real shxt, which made everyone turn down on me. i cant concentrate on school NO more, i cant even laff my ass off that much like i usually do, nor i cant sleep right. i had this same crisis when i was in 7th gradde and i thought it was ova and done with, but now it has gotten worst. friends cant help me this time.. if this is what qettin older and fuckin fightin w/ ur family everyday is like, then i need to make some right shxt and get movin and steppin bck up to the top, i aint lettin no one fckin whip me down. qotta fight back through dis bitch ass timeline called life.
---- UPDATE --- oh jea, now im fuckin grounded
L0VE,
__`kizzy
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| wowiee !!! its already wednesdai ?!?! wtf . wow. lmao. new layoout coming owt. okay bitches? ok !
L0VE,
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